Hi everyone! I'm just writing to give a brief update, if you will. I've been really busy doing my whole "music thing" and it's been my focus this week, as it has been for the past month or so. Music was always the thing that took my mind off of things, but now I think there needs to be a change. Instead of distracting my thoughts with music and keeping them from ever surfacing, I'm going to start pulling away from music. So starting next semester, I'm dropping one of my orchestras.

As official as it is to have in writing, I'm sure a lot of you won't believe it until you see it. I'm usually in that boat too, but not today. No, today I'm realizing that I need to get my act together. I need to grow up. I look at a lot of my friends and what they're doing to prepare for graduation, as far away as it is. A lot of them are doing internships, practicing lots, studying for exams, etc. Me? I'm doing my "music thing" and it's really starting to eat at me.

People think I'm easy going. It's true, to some extent; I'm usually pretty flexible. But when I get stressed, oh boy... Let's just say that it's not pretty. X_x That's why I have my friends, hehe. But seriously, without some them I would be a traveling wreck. There are those friends that know me and then there are those that get me. I dunno, they can just tell when I'm not being my best and they right the wrongs.

And in a flash of insight, I thought about a particular friend who has been there for me in ways that I wish I could repay tenfold. A few summers ago, we went out for tea and my friend told me, plain and simple, that I was a bit more talkative after my first year of college. The realization of change happening gives me hope. Hope that I can vanquish my current demons and show off a brand new Dan for the rest of the world to know and love. :) Things may be rough now, but sooner or later, I'll grow up. Fear not!

Sooner or later I'll grow up, and when I do, the change seen will tell all that the struggle was well worth it.